Getting Lost
is the diary kept by Annie Ernaux during the year and a half she had a
secret love affair with a younger, married man, an attaché to the Soviet
embassy in Paris. Her novel, Simple Passion,
was based on this affair, but here her writing is immediate and
unfiltered.
In these diaries it is 1989 and Annie is divorced with two
grown sons, living in the suburbs of Paris and nearing fifty. Her lover
escapes the city to see her there and Ernaux seems to survive only in
expectation of these encounters. She cannot write, she trudges
distractedly through her various other commitments in the world, she
awaits his next call; she lives merely to feel desire and for the next
rendezvous. When he is gone and the moment of desire has faded, she
feels that she is a step closer to death.
Lauded for her spare
prose, Ernaux here removes all artifice, her writing pared down to its
most naked and vulnerable. Translated brilliantly for the first time by
Alison L. Strayer, Getting Lost is a haunting record of a woman in the grips of love, desire and despair.